only three times so far?!?

so...i'm a loser. i just noticed i have only posted three times this month. funny. so many opportunities for great blog entries and i choose to forget posting them here. geez.

right now...i'm obsessively listening to my chemical romance. i don't know why. "the ghost of you" is super addictive to listen to...prolly for the 30th time tonight. i guess it's speaking to me today.

worked the coffeeshop this morning. and last saturday morning. i actually enjoyed it today. and last saturday, too. that will pass. i'll grow to hate it soon. the only thing i didn't enjoy about working these past two saturdays was missing out on glorious weather. i would have loved to been hanging out at kaldis...people watching. sipping on a caffeineated beverage. maybe throwing a stitch or two on the needles. people watch some more. that's how i would like to spend my saturday mornings. unfortunately, so do so many other folks in the lou. kaldis has just become so crazy.

i'm restless. home alone. contemplating my next move. right now...teleport me to 33 and let a glass of red be twirling in my fingers...spinning on the table...swirling...no time for legs to drip down the inside of the glass...actively disappearing...staining my lips a slight tinge of purple. yum. if my sis was here...i would kidnap her in a hearbeat and have several glasses to drink with her. i miss her. genuinely speaking...i feel like she's all the family i have right now. (well, her and my dad...stepdad, actually.) if she didn't live so far away...well, what's four hours? i would visit her every weekend if i could. but she's gradding it up. my lil sis...getting her master's. it makes me so ridiculously proud. my heart breaks with the amount of joy i have in seeing her aim and achieve so much. crap. i'm getting teary now. hell. i think i definitely need a drink now.